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What I Was Feeling when he broke up with me (2)

I genuinely never thought this would happen to me. I am the woman who is known to play with men and their feelings. However, the one time I have hidden but genuine feelings for a man, he breaks up with me. I thought things were good between us, but my inability to express my feelings ultimately made him end things. I cheated, lied, and manipulated often to get what I wanted. It was just the person my environment shaped me into being. That's how others treated me, so that is what I had to do to have the upper hand. I'm more clever than anyone in this town and I know how to win. Unfortunately for me, Nick wouldn't deal with that. It hurt my ego, but especially disappointed my hopes of continuing a relationship with him. Daisy had two men after her, one of which was truly in love with her. Not that I am jealous of her, but the thought of a true relationship sounded nice. I couldn't let people find out that I was dumped by him. I had to figure out some way to make it sound ...

What I Was Feeling during my relationship with Nick (1)

In general, I do not trust men. Never, in my experience, has a man done anything without an ulterior motive. Yes, I have my fun with leading men on. If this makes me a terrible human being, then so be it. In my opinion, most of them deserve it. Especially the ones who take advantage of women by abusing and cheating on them. My view on men was altered when I met Nick. He was quite different from the men I usually encounter. He was an outspoken and genuine man. This type of man was extremely rare in this area. I've never had anyone heavily counting on me, so everything I do in my life is to benefit me. I am a clever woman who keeps her true intentions hidden. Though I didn't always show it, I really liked Nick. He grounded me and made me feel safe. Although I thought we made a great pair, I was always worried he hated my vagueness. It seemed the way I was treated others, unconsciously slipped into the way I treated Nick. Can you believe it? Jordan Baker was worried about how she ...

Why I Let Daisy Marry Tom (2)

Okay, so maybe Daisy wouldn't have gotten married to Tom if I had given into her drunk words. In my defense, at the time, she was extremely drunk. It was clear her judgement was extremely impaired and she had been so happy recently. She had just stopped her nightly crying about Gatsby and I could not let her ruin her newfound happy relationship, especially the night before her wedding. It also didn't hurt that Tom had quite a bit of money. I knew Gatsby would always be in her heart but I wanted to believe she loved Tom. Now I regret not listening to her drunken slurs that she had changed her mind. I let my opinions of what was best for her outweigh what she needed. This marriage was just a mess and I cannot help but feel slightly responsible. I hated the way he treated her but I couldn't get myself to confront the situation. This was one of my first experiences with guilt. I take unconditional pride with everything I do. Usually... I can tell that this relationship only fil...

Why I Cheated Golf (1)

Let's be honest... I am nothing like Daisy. She has a seemingly perfect like with a seemingly pure heart. Everyone loves her for just standing and looking pretty in a white dress. I, on the other hand, am a little more rough around the edges. Men these days like to manipulate women, but no man will ever take advantage of me. I am a strong woman who enjoys success and admiration from a crowd more than a single man. In my teens, I realized that I was pretty good at golf. I could hit the ball harder and farther than any of my male peers. My aunt signed me up to play in against a few local teen golfers and I actually got fourth place. However, I soon realized fourth was not good enough. I also realized that I didn't really enjoy the sport, but I enjoyed the notoriety. Through my few years of playing, I definitely got better and soon became a pro golfer. The papers went crazy over a successful female pro golfer and my ego was at full capacity. I was finally ready to compete in the h...

Not that they want to know What I Was Thinking, but Daisy... Wake up! (2)

I, Jordan Baker, will admit it. I love gossip, even when it's concerning my best friend. I almost heard Tom's conversation with his mystery mistress that morning Nick arrived. Unfortunately, Nick couldn't quite comprehend the situation and kept speaking. This gossip, is specifically interesting because I actually care about the woman it affects: Daisy. I want her to wake up, stand up for herself, and divorce Tom. Unfortunately, there's nothing I could tell her that would surprise her. I am almost positive Daisy knows about Tom's unfaithfulness. This is what angers me the most. She knows that her husband is cheating on her and yet she remains married to him. I must admit that I originally thought Daisy needed Tom to get over Gatsby. I felt that he could distract her and I was not aware of Tom's true character. She seemed happy with him and I like to see her happy. However, I realize now that he is nothing but conceited and careless. When I heard the phone call, I...

It's really none of my business, but here's What I Was Thinking! (1)

Now I didn't say much the day that Gatsby and Tom had their big brawl over who loved Daisy, and more importantly, who Daisy loved more. However, I sure was silently judging. I mean, ever since Daisy and I were little girls, she was always so submissive. She didn't want to hurt Tom's feelings so she told him she did love him. This really had me biting my tongue because I knew it wasn't true. Daisy gave into what others wanted for the sake of pleasing everyone and keeping peace. I'm the closest friend she's ever had. I have always known the Gatsby was the only man for her. I also know that Tom made her feel less lonely. This was why Daisy may have fallen for him. I feel as though she missed having a man in her life. I wanted to scream at Tom, telling him that he was just warming Gatsby's seat and now that he's back, Tom should leave. I wanted to tell Daisy off for just sitting there and letting these men talk for her. I feel like this is an ongoing problem...